When things don’t go your way and it feels like whatever you do it just won’t work out, what do you do? Honesty Face the facts. Admit to yourself your shortcomings. Are you really working hard for what you wanted or just doing busywork to preoccupy yourself? What is preventing you from what you need
Starting over is hard – people say that all the time but unless you go through it yourself, you don’t really know how hard it is. Maybe some people are more suited for change than others and I am not one of them.
I moved to Saskatoon a few months ago – weather change, total strangers, unemployment. All that came in one heavy swoop. It was stressful, to say the least especially the last one. I am not good at being unemployed. I love work. I like being a web designer/developer and all the challenges that comes with it. Some would say I’m a workaholic but I think it just comes to actually enjoying what you do and I can’t see myself doing anything e
Here is where my stubbornness kicks in.
Some people around me keep saying – oh you just have to go take any job because you’re starting over – which is not a bad suggestion. There are tons of different jobs here in Saskatoon and I think any decent work is a good thing and time well spent on. I did construction once and I thought it was a good experience. (So, don’t mess with me, I know power tools.)
I am all for making things work. I also have responsibilities and obligations to fulfill and that adds to the pressure of getting employed (no matter what). But even if you know you can do the work sometimes, having a job is not enough. For me who values and enjoy work, it’s a challenge to change careers. It’s hard (and scary) to just change everything, to stop what you love doing and be something else – out of necessity. It feels like giving up on who you are or selling out because of money. It feels like the woes of a starving artist.
I’m also thinking that it might be just be part pride, might be part ego. That it’ll be easier for me to accept that things are not the same anymore. Acceptance is key. Be flexible, says the fortune cookie I got from a local Chinese restaurant. Bitter pieces aside, change is good; maybe.
I’ve been trying to finish the book Linchpin by Seth Godin. It’s a really good book, inspirational yet sometimes I feel like I am being scolded by my elders about what I am doing, about my stubbornness, and the decisions I have been making. I think it’s a good thing because it makes me dig deeper on what I can do, what I can change.
I once rode a bus and the driver was an elderly man who had this awesome radio dj voice. He would call out what stops are coming and when he spoke to people he was very cheerful. I told him he has an awesome voice and he smiled and thanked me. He was a Linchpin. He didn’t need to announce the stops but I think enjoyed it. I think he knew his nice voice makes people smile and that a lot appreciates that he does what he does. He was brave. It was his gift to his passengers like an artist freely showing this passion to the world.
When we were kids, we get asked what we wanted to be or who we wanted to be like when we grow up. Personally, I can’t remember what the heck I said when I was asked that. Growing up, we were raised by a single mom on minimum wage working 6 days a week with overtime so all I could think of then was school, graduate, and get a job to earn money to buy food. I wanted a refrigerator stocked with pizza and ice cream, and my mom never needing to work ever again.
In recent years, I have explored other fields of interest and among them is history. I hated the subject in school because we were made to memorize so many dates, people’s names, and important places that now I barely remember. This interest in history was because of the rich, dramatic, and grand stories of England. The royals, the palaces, the wars. It’s fascinating to me that I choose to watch documentaries. So, heaven bless the BBC. This also came from my love of [classic] books and period films. I think I’ve seen all the Jane Austen movies and remakes and drama series and their remakes.
To answer the question, I think would have loved to be like Dr. Lucy Worsley. (Her website is www.lucyworsley.com) She’s an English historian, TV presenter on history, author, and the Chief Curator at Historic Royal Palaces. She heads the organization that manages the royal palaces that are unoccupied or not being used by the royal family. The beautiful, historic buildings are privately cared for; meaning they do not receive any support from the state or the royal family and only from visitors, donors, and volunteers. This part amazes me. The Tower of London, Hampton Court, the Kew Palace – all independent. Dr. Worsley’s office for one is in the Hampton Court Palace. (See, I just geeked out right there). Kudos to the British public and to all the tourists out there for their support, I hope to be one of you in this lifetime.
Her smart, well-researched, witty, and interesting documentaries are well-worth the watch. I don’t watch TV much (except if Arsenal has a match) and only watch via YouTube. It’s my afternoon tv soap opera. For me, history is about the good stories and not memorizing the dates and people’s names. It’s more about what happened to that person on that time in that place and understanding the reasons why.
(Video source: 5×15 Stories YouTube Channel)
(Video source: BBC YouTube Channel)
With the risk of sounding fairly odd, I had an amusing fangirl moment when she, Dr. Lucy Worsley herself, “favorited” my tweet about her. Well, she might have an assistant managing this, but whatever. It was nice and it made me smile.
Personality tests are scattered all over the internet – from the silly to the scientific. I’ve tried very few because most of the time I feel like it’s not very useful, or I’m just too lazy to read all those questions and options. Anyway, backed with research I tried this one based on the writings of Carl